The joys of Crohn's

Crohn's is no fun. In fact, it is rather crappy. I feel like my body is falling apart piece by piece. I am on antibiotics for the 4th time since April. The joy and fun of being immune suppressed and having active fistulas. This time I am on Clindamycin which has a huge warning sticker about how it might cause diarrhea which, as a Crohnie, means it will cause horrible, liquid, painful, get myself to the GI for c. diff. test diarrhea. I experienced that with Cephalexin and really am not excited about experiencing that again. It completely reminds me of colonoscopy prep. To make matters worse, having firrhea is 100000000x worse with fistulas.The pain is unbearable... and the shame and stigma. Also I hate being a human sieve. My biggest dream is to be able to poop through the right hole only! I feel the inevitable coming. My GI tract sounds like a whale's mating call. Wish me luck!